That title says it all. I literally... have been in my pajamas all day. All day. Not only pjs, but one of those oversized, 'mom' sleep shirts that is neither trendy nor sexy. It even says 'mom' on it. And not only am I the proud owner of the next best thing to a muumuu, but as I was sitting watching the ultimate chick flick (The Vow) with my computer sleeping on my lap... in the reflection on the screen I saw... my mother :) My hair was half sticking up because I had woke up and immediately started doing housework earlier in the day (in my pjs), my arms were crossed exactly how she sits while watching something she's very into on tv with my eyes slightly squinted. I know my mother will be so excited that I've described her this way - but Mom, just shut up and put on a little lipstick :) I don't mind morphing into my mother. She has so many great qualities, and I love making my sisters laugh with on the spot impersonations :)
I did numerous things for my family today. Ok... the chick flick was for me. But I seriously thought I would be able to do some paperwork at the same time. Channing Tatum thought differently. So I caved and just enjoyed the movie.
Saw this today - Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy.
Just. Be. Happy.
I feel like I'm always on the lookout for something. Always on the hunt for the next thing that's going to make me content. A new exercise or health food. A new paint color for the walls. There's always got to be some thought racing through my mind that makes me uneasy or believe that there's something so wrong with my life, personally. I rarely am able to just legitimately pause and just be. Just be happy for the roof over our head (and the space that it finally gives my family) and the health of my family. I'm breathing and I've got God. We have food on our table and warm blankets at night.
Life doesn't always have to be so dramatic. I often like to pin this on other people... ahem, my husband. But as I stop tonight and look at all I've accomplished for my family and myself today - even if it was in just my pajamas sans undergarments ;) - I feel as though I'm truly enjoying this happiness. Really, though, I may and probably do bring on most of my anxiety. With just simply the thoughts I let run through my head. Just had a major case of deja vu there - freaky! I need to learn to let myself relax and not focus so much on what all the wrongs are, but all the rights that we do have. That I have. Maybe if I just slow down and focus on the little things daily that my family and this world needs me to do... I wouldn't have to make up such personal drama in my head.
I took the trash out three times today in my pajamas - hope the neighbor guy appreciated that view ;) You're welcome, Jerry!
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