I text my mother an S.O.S. text this morning: It's 10:00, and I'm not sure how the day could get worse!
It seemed as though I was getting it from every which way this morning... to the point that I had to ask myself... out loud... what is wrong with my family?! I feel like day after day, the universe is reminding me that the world is ending. Thankfully, I'm a Christian, so I hope to get into Heaven when this day comes. However, it's still hard to take the human emotion out of every day trials even knowing that God's mercy is so dreamy. Let's face it... the guy's a dreamboat :)
I'm sitting in the living room, and it's a beautiful morning outside. The windows are open and the sun blazing in. I can hear the kids running and playing outside in the warmth of the sun. I came across a great post on Facebook the other day... that life is difficult. It JUST is. And once we accept that fact that it is, it immediately makes it better. Almost easier - knowing that trials and tribulations are what make our life almost normal.
I've been talking to God a lot today.... and it's not even NOON! I'm in need of his strength and unconditional love. I'm asking him for guidance on how to parent such a strong willed, mini-me of a daughter I have. To continue to show her love and patience even though she's totally testing the latter :) I'm asking him to help me control what I can and let go of what I can't. To give me the strength to get through my days as the person I want to be and walk closely with him. And when you give Him your problems, if you sit in silence and just wait... His healing will come in His perfect timing... but if you give it just a minute... that calm you feel come over you... it's Him. It's his embrace forming around you, and I just don't know how that CAN'T make you feel BETTER!
I'm leaving my life up to him - I'm trusting that all my hurts and all my questions will eventually make sense and a clear answer will come to my heart. Everything will be ok... it's already all planned out. We, at least I, tend to lose sight of this and go on as if my choices are what's determining my life. Like I'm the living end. It's like... get over yourself!
Life is difficult... there's no getting out alive. I'm going to try to just breathe and get through everything that is thrown my way. I mean... what else can you do?!
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